Feb. 24th, 2011

Death....

Feb. 24th, 2011 11:01 am
jezebelblue: (broken jezebel)
A friend of mine died.
His family had disowned him because he was gay.
We are sorting out arrangements, me from the UK and his partner from the US.
I can't think through the tears. Well, I am trying to.

I woke up this morning to find that someone was (cynical head here) trying to fuck with someone I love. And then as I was trying to leave the house, the phone rang...news that I knew I would get....but not now, please....

You were too special. You taught me soo much. How to love without worrying. How to be without caring. How to be selfish without thinking that was wrong.

I am now in the kind of relationship that you wanted for me...and you had only a short time to be happy for me...but you were. The one email I have from you about it will be printed and saved...as it was so lovely and so filled with love, happiness and... just...

You were a guiding light. You and I did not talk as much as we should have with life getting involved...But...your spirit, your light always stays with me.

I missed seeing you before...now I won't ever see you again. My heart is breaking....but I know you would kick me and yell 'Girl, get over yourself'

I will...but can I have today to cry a lot?

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